Hi Carnal,
I for one am not associated with these people at all. I came,like you,to try and gain some knowledge on Christianity. However I was only ran around in circles here on this site, much like yourself.
If you wish to get some real good information and be part of a loving,caring,respctful and nonjudgemental church then give LBC a try. Their site is
www.landoverbaptist.net there you can search archives, watch previous messages,join "life" groups, and have a place as a member of a 'real' church.
Good Luck with your walk with Christ.