Originally Posted by HonestDisagreer
I have read the bible, but my knowledge of it is nowhere near the level presented on this forum (which is good considering how important it is to you)
Dear, when you read the Holy Bible, did you do so lovingly? Did you caress each word as a love letter written just to you, to be preserved through time, at great cost (brave martyrdom), just so you could understand the necessity of accepting Jesus as your Lord and Master? Did you read it prayerfully? Did you read it with the innocence of a child? Were you overwhelmed with guilt and repentance, and were you ashamed to be human, to have contributed to the terrible long weekend Jesus suffered because of your sins? Did you immediately drop to your knees and beg the LORD to accept you as His humble servant, His tool to do with what He wants? Did you beg Him to take your mind, your strength, your heart, all that is important to you just for the privilege of letting Him consume you so that you essentially cease to exist and Christ Himself exists in your place? Did you beg Him to do with you what He will because you deserve naught but an eternity of indescribable torture and suffering, both physical and mental because you had the audacity to be born a sinful creature that offended Him so? Did you recognize your utter emptiness and need for Him to complete you?
If not, dear, I think you read it wrong. God doesn't wants our hearts, He wants our obedience. This is for our own good.